Thursday, March 8, 2012

E2E Midweek Update #10: Totally sucking here...

After a couple of good days, it went downhill. Poor sleep. Munchies. Eating extra meals. Calories hovering at 1800 to 1900. Scale is scarily at 182.2.

I thought my mojo would be HIGHER as the week progressed, but I'm finding that rejiggering the macros for my thyroid's health is making me hungry. Not binge-hunger, but hungry. Too hungry. It's vexing me.

I am so not happy about this turn of events. And for me, Friday needs to be about pulling myself together, cause the weekend always presents temptations. Usually, I do fine. But I have no confidence right now that I'd be a paragon of strength on Saturday.

I always knew these bad times would come after so much of 'good breezy times" in 2010 and especially 2011. But I must buck up, pray, read, whatever it takes to find the breeze again.

For now, it's been me not as in control as I want to be or need to be. It's just been a couple of really "I wanna eat more" days...sucks.

Sucks big.

But I will work on the mental and emo stuff to get me back to basics. I'm fine with fluids. Not as fine with the walking due to some rainy days. Did Pilates today, and I got lightheaded at one point, but otherwise did well. I have dark circles from the poor sleep, and I suspect the increased hunger is also about that. Bad sleep has always meant "scale up" and "hunger up" for me.

If I can sleep well and find my groove again, I will be a very happy Princess.

Well, sorry for the downer of an update. There it is.

It will be better. I always believe that. :D

Nite...

"The ability to discipline yourself to delay gratification in the short term in order to enjoy greater rewards in the long term is the indispensable prerequisite for success." 
~~Maxwell Maltz

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ~~Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

10 comments:

40 Minus 100 said...

"Wanna eat MORE-itis" must have been in the AIR today cause I battled that BIG TIME today as well. :-/ You're doing great though. Keep it up! :)

Caron said...

I love your optimism and hope you do find your groove again soon. Health problems do take away a lot of our control.

Nanette said...

Even being a so called downer, you're keeping your chin up! This is just a minor deterrent. You'll be back to your rip-roaring self soon.

I hope you can get some quality rest tonight.

Floriana said...

Yeah, I get it. Seems that that's something most of us go through after a long time on track. The system gets tired, it gets harder to stay conscious, alert and in control all the time. Hang in there, Princess. It's all part of the process.

Jordan said...

Hey Bud,
I can feel the fear that one bad day and some water weight add up to sliding right back to the bad old days and how much you want to get back the easy breezy days of easy losing. Instead of failing, maybe you are maintaining. I don't think you should feel bad - but you also can't afford to eat more than ~1600 cals!! You are just plain beautiful Don't forget that!

MeJane said...

I think it's sunspots... or the moon... SOMETHING! I was going thru a funk yesterday, just like that! Feeling better today, though. Here's to a great weekend for you!

mybizzykitchen.com said...

Yep, I've had too many extra bites this week for some reason - while I don't write about it on my blog, I am stressed by bills, my husband being out of work, he's still recovering and while I know it will get better, I ate a lot of my feelings this week.

Here's to us both having a better week!

mybizzykitchen.com said...

Yep, I've had too many extra bites this week for some reason - while I don't write about it on my blog, I am stressed by bills, my husband being out of work, he's still recovering and while I know it will get better, I ate a lot of my feelings this week.

Here's to us both having a better week!

Anne H said...

What a fine fine line....
It all works out in the end...
It's just this part that sucks!

Julie said...

Learning is what it's all about. Finding that sweet spot and working it. You've found it, you'll find it again...it's just moved so the search continues.
Take care Mir and have a blessed Friday.