Eve 2 Easter Challenge: The Ridiculously Long, Eye-Strainingly Detailed, Photo-Filled Initial Post (Triple Gold Stars for Those Who Miraculously Manage to Read it ALL!)

Okay, here we are on the eve of a new year and eve of a new challenge. Hooray!

Bad news: I regained weight since Christmas.

The Really Bad News: It doesn't take much to regain for me. I mean, no cakes, pies, trigger foods, binges. Just a couple more fruits this day, some extra eggs that day, too much olive oil on the veggies a few nights, some sugar-free chocolate here and there, and overall sticking to 1700/1800 calories. And yes, that is regain caloric level for me.

The SuperDuper, UberBad News: this and this. Only a couple of the dire things we obese/formerly obese folks have to deal with/learn about. Work around.

The Light in the Dark:  If I did it once, I can do it again. The power is in me.

The Reality Spark: Read this. It may not be the BEST news, but it is still good news.

Okay, setbacks are part of the journey. STAYING SET BACK should never be part of it, though. So, none of us ought to wallow. Up and onward. That's it! Just armor back on and shoes tied up tightly and the march resumes.

So, since I set up the particulars of this challenge, it behooves me to get on with them, and they are:

        1. Initial update with challenge dress/outfit before pic, weight, waist measure.

        2. Main weekly update by Sunday with linky; midweek 2nd update.

        3. Post my guiding quote/verse in challenge updates

        4. Reveal and post about the books I will be using

        5. Support my assigned challenge buddy consistently

        6. State measurable goals in assorted areas and track them weekly.

        7. Commit to support at least 3 challengers weekly.

        8. Vow not to quit the challenge .

       9. Final update with after pic in outfit, final measures.

Here are the goals and how I will measure them, what tools I will use, etc:

~~~A.  To LOSE 10 lbs in 14 weeks.
^^^Tools:  Tanita-San, my Scale, My Menu Planner, and my SparkPeople nutrition Tracker
****might seem low to you, but for me, hurdle. I'm pretty sure 180 or so was my setpoint, as I had to fight to get to it and couldn't hang on much below it. So, I have to encourage my body--using whatever tools I have--to heal up, reset, burn fat, and let me get closer to my end goal of 160 lbs.  Trust me, even a 1/2 pound loss a week is a fight for me these days. I plan to track calories and keep myself at 1400-1500 calories. That might produce a snail's pace level of loss, but I won't go lower. It will be what it will be at THAT level. I bought a calendar for the kitchen that has a menu planner, so I can better organize meals. Might save moolah doing that, which helps!

~~~B. FIT into my Nine West size 14 dress. (See pic of zipper not zipping, lower down in this post)
^^^Tool: the dress, natch. And the camera to document. Dress is to be tried on in regular intervals: every 4 weeks, final update.
***Fits great below. Fits NOT at all above. Combo of back fat and big boobs. Can the fat selectively burn off my upper back? Well, no. BUT..that's what I'm gonna ask my body to do. Just burn that upper back hump o' lard and let me fit into this scrumptious little black number. I keep the faith.

~~~C. Get my WAIST NUMBER in a healthier range i.e, under 35 inches.
^^^Tool: tape measure--my Myotape and weekly measures to be updated on blog.
***My waist is really resistant. And when I regain, guess where it goes? Yep, seems like all 5.5 lbs went to my middle. I'm up an inch there to 36 today. I had been 35. Dr. Oz and pals say women should be UNDER 35 for less risk of obesity related diseases.
Ya know, I lose more easily off legs/thighs/butt, even hips,  (not that I had much butt, though). The belly and abdomen finally caved after a while, but as an appley gal, it's a struggle to get the torso fat off. I think the years on steroids made me prone to upper body fat (hence the FAT BACK, and buffalo humpiness--much improved, thank God). I am back on steroids to get through December (bad month for me, asthmatically, which is good so far, no infections). 40+ years of oral/inhaled/injected/topical steroids probably will mean that upper back fat will be resistant. I will insist it do something. I'm gonna talk to the body and see what the body does. Ditto the WAIST.

~~~D. Resume my more energetic EXERCISE mojo in the benevolent winter in Miami
^^^Tools: Exercise journal, exercise videos, exercise equipment, sneakers, trainer.
***I slacked off in the last couple months, once for necessity's sake (I sprained my ankle) and the next time from holiday lollygagging. Time to get back to what was working for me, which was 4x to 5x a week of 30 or more minutes of walking or dancing (ie, energetic, heart-pumping movement) and 2x a week minimum of strength/flexibility training (with Pilates trainer and/or a video). If trainer, 1 hour. If video, however long that is, from 20 mins on. I also want to incorporate eccentric strength training, and need to figure that baby out. That would not be a long bit of exercise, but it will be a HARD bit of exercise. I bought an exercise journal, and I aim to update it.

~~~E. Remain thoroughly HYDRATED
^^^Tool: Tallying 8 oz increments for a total of 10 cups a day worth.
***Basically, I count in my head as I drink and keep a running tally. I might just use the calendar in the kitchen and notch out the water tally. Other tools: filtering water pitcher and lots of fresh decaf green tea & coffee and coconut water. More sweat, more water.

~~~F. SUPPORT at least 3 bloggers in the challenge a week.
^^^Tool: Um, my computer? ; )
***I don't expect this one to be tough at all. I blog and check other blogs anyway.

~~~G: Stay MOTIVATED, learn, and apply knowledge
^^^Tools: my challenge books and science/research blogs and articles or blogs by other fatfighting experts.
***I'm a big reader by disposition, so my goal is to read something every day--blogs, articles, chapters in my books. Learn..and apply. Measurable: I will note in updates for the challenge how much reading I'm doing, progress in books, articles read, etc.  I will quote or link up to anything that was especially good, that I apply, or that motivated me most in my reading. I plan to reread THREE BOOKS to more fully absorb the info. All of them are useful and jampacked with stuff.

~~~H. Be a solid CHALLENGE BUDDY to JORDAN
^^^Tool: email, blog comments, maybe phone calls, not sure.
*** Since I have an assigned buddy in the challenge, I aim to be very supportive and watch their back. If I see any sign of flagging or demotivation, I will try to find ways to cheer them up, energize their mojo, whatever. I want to do right by my buddy. So, the measurable portion: leave a comment on all their blog posts!We'll work out whatever else is to be done.

~~~I. Be Affirmed by my GUIDING QUOTE/VERSE
^^^Tool: Posting the quote 2x a week (or more) with my challenge required blog post updates.
*** Yeah, gotta remember to do this one. But I believe in the power of affirmations and of words and verses.

~~~J. A Vow NOT TO QUIT
^^^Tool: verbal/written commitment made in public
*** I believe that when we actually put it in words of oath or vow or promise or commitment, we seem to activate something inside that makes it more likely we will do that thing we vow, promise, commit to do. So, I'm asking myself and the challengers to do just that. Make a vow, promise, commitment to stay in the challenge to the very end.

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THE EVE 2 EASTER CHALLENGE STARTING POINT:

STARTING WEIGHT:  183 pounds. (Sheesh, just SHEESH!)

STARTING WAIST: 36 inches

THE DRESS (basic, but elegant, sleeveless black)...and how it fits in the BEFORE PIC:

Excuse the messy scrunchied hair.
I wanted no obstruction to the back view.
The zipper stops here. I have this with
other dresses--14 below. 16 in boobytown
Dat's my supportive underwire sports bra.

Front view, full shot.
Love how this dress accents the waist.

Side view, and yeah, I coulda ironed it, huh?
The white tag is peeping out from my arm, see?

  Okay, that's dressy BEFORE.

Now, the BOOKS AND TOOLS:

Walking and Pilates
Books:
REFUSE TO REGAIN
THE SMARTER SCIENCE OF SLIM
SWITCH (on Kindle Fire)

SWITCH on Kindle Fire &
FITBIT for motivation to walk MORE

Two measuring tapes...but I'll use the MYOTAPE
for the official weekly updates.

More tools: weights, kettlebell, Pilates toning balls
These are the feet made for walking and Pilates, hah.

MY GUIDING QUOTE and VERSE (yeah, I picked two):

"The ability to discipline yourself to delay gratification in the short term in order to enjoy greater rewards in the long term is the indispensable prerequisite for success."

--Maxwell Maltz

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.   

~~Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) 

My VOW: I vow here and now not quit this challenge, I will NOT QUIT.  And I commit to support fellow E2E challengers (some, if not all, and my "buddy" above all).

To all fellow challengers: WE CAN DO THIS!

If you aren't in the challenge, please encourage and support us. If you're praying folks, pray for us.

Let's do it.

Be good and be well....

If You're a Believer with Spiritual Gifts, How Does It Manifest In Your FatFight?

It's funny, cause it only just occurred to me today that my spiritual gifts manifest on my weight loss journey/blogging. I know, it makes sense that it would, but I hadn't actually really just NOTICED how much it happens.

Since I was sealed with the Spirit in 1975, I've heard over and over, including from ministers and pastor's wives, that my clear and present spiritual gifts were teaching and exhortation. I've used my teaching gifts overtly--I tutored deaf and Title I kids in high school, led tutoring groups in college, led Sunday School classes for teens and for adults. I always got amazing feedback on my teaching, whether secular or spiritual. I had failing students get B's and better, in short order. (If my health had been better, I would have taught high school English, cause, yeah, me likeys the booksies.)

My exhortation gift tended to take more personal forms, in conversations,  but it clearly did come out, and obviously should, in a class or group study situation. I really wasn't just happy teaching. I wanted to excite and move the students to apply. Including myself. I wanted people to shine. And I want to shine, too. About dang time for me, I say!

Maybe this is why blogging is helpful to me. I can teach and exhort MYSELF as I research, experiment, read around, try things out. Learn and apply. Learn and share. Kindly admonish myself and you, too. Cheerlead with faith and optimism that we can do it!

I think I like leading challenges because my gifts--well, that sounds snotty, but that is how we talk about them in the Church, gifts/abilities given by God through the Spirit--can be used. I like to feel useful to my fellow fatfighters. Yes, this blogging things is mostly about ME since its inception--me in my journey overcoming my weaknesses, getting stronger, moving forward. But I so much want to share what I learn that MIGHT be of use and I so want to pump you up to move over your humps, too.  I want us all to move forward together.

And so I wonder, if you are a believer and know you have particular gifts from God, how have you been using them in this forum? I mean, gifts spill over. A teaching gift doesn't evaporate cause the setting is secular or the topic is worldly. A gift of giving doesn't turn into a selfish hoarding trait if it's not a church setting. A gift is a gift.

If you have it, use it. Use it to help yourself and others win the fat war. Makes sense, yes?

I want to keep self-teaching and self-exhorting, and I want to win this fight. And because these are my gifts, yes, I'll still share what I learn and try to find where you have weaknesses you don't even notice, all to help you. I'll keep cheerleading you, cause it makes me happy to see you perk up and move forward.

Please use your gifts...on me! I need them. Use them. We all need help.

And if you aren't a believer, and you have skills/gifts, then use them. Think about what your real gifts are in relation to others--are you a good listener, are you an encourager, are you generous and a giver, are you highly empathetic, are you a tough drill sergeant who won't back away from truthtelling, are you motherly---and put it to use here in bloggy world for the benefit of those fighting the fight.

Don't waste what you have! Use it!

Be well...

One Slot Open for my Eve to Easter Challenge....want in?

Edited to add: Thanks to those who responded. We filled the slot.

I had one bow-out due to medical reasons. I have one slot open. If you're interested, go read the Eve 2 Easter Challenge rules/requirements and see if you fit. Then comment HERE if you want to request that slot.

Initial challenge post will be due by end of Saturday, Eastern time (yes, New Year's Eve!)

A buddy will be assigned. You will need to be faithfully accountable (part of the strategy, natch).

Later, be well...

Holy NaCl, Batman! WTF am I doing???? Oh, and Working on the Challenge....

I'm finishing up my tweaks to the E2E challenge, and still grinning like a silly girl at the so so so sososososososo cool badge Bluezy created for us. (I love you so much, Bluezy, smoochsmooch!)

This is it:

Seriously, how kickbutt cool is this?

I just have to work out the final organizational bits, cause the first challenge linky goes up Friday and the initial update is due Saturday, New Year's Eve. I know, I'm insane to make that the start date, but I wanted "Eve" in the challenge title, and "Eve" in the metaphor and there it is. I'm certifiable. :D

I'm also astounded at my scale. Well, not, I'm not. It said 182.0. OMG. Well, lemme go update the ticker. I believe in transparency and honesty on weight loss blogs, so I have to turn back the 121 pounds lost. Geesh. I'll get it back.

So....why?

I've totally been on a salt binge. Notice, not a food binge. I've not binged since spring of 2010. My last binge was THAT long ago. But once in a while, I just go nuts with the salt tooth I have (salt tongue?). I've been hitting feta with my eggs, feta and olives with Greek salads, salty restaurant chicken veggie soups (cause I've been too lazy to make lower sodium homemade ones). Ham on Christmas Eve and the day after. If it's salty, I wanted to eat it. I was even tempted to just shake salt on my tongue.

Compulsion and addictive behaviors...they transfer. If it's not food as an outlet, some folks shop (I went on a wild spree a couple times during the DDDY challenges when I was eating 1200 cals.)  Or sex. (Um, yeah, hubby's gotten way more in 2011 than anytime after those first 7 newlywed years.) Or drugs, booze (ah, no, I don't go there).

My addictive personality has been downloading Kindle books, playing too much solo Scrabble and going for the salt.

I need to cut that crap out! I'm up 5 lbs from challenge final weigh-in!!!!!!

And that's dangerous. In more than bloaty ways. It reignites the urges to eat, salt can. Hyperpalatable foods (salty counts) can make the body fatten up again, appetite ratchet up again. It affects the brain, and the brain affects EVERYTHING.

I need to get a handle on it. Sigh.

I tend to do fine with some salt. It's when I go sodium mad that the cliff edge gets closer.

I don't want to mess up this close to goal weight.

So, yeah...pre-challenge, my goal is to ease off on the yummy salty overload. God, help me, and let's get this done!

Okay, I need to go have some water, plan out my exercise and errands and finish with some challenge stuff.

I also wanna say I'm glad to see Allan blogging again. He is a kick in the butt for many of us...a motivator. Some hate him, and yeah, I understand that tactful he ain't. And some love him, cause he helps folks get focused and stop making excuses. He'll always have a soft spot in my heart for those DDDY challenges. So, love him or hate him, maybe go read what he has to say and it might (or might not) help. Some need tough love. If that's you, head over. If you are really sensitive and gentle of soul and take criticism badly, stay away. Not everyone's cuppa, as they say.

Be good and be well...

FELIZ NAVIDAD! MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Tonight is Nochebuena. Tomorrow, Christmas Day. Very special and holy days, and also family days.

It's a sad Christmas (lost my nephew 5 months ago) and my BIL had a double whammy--lost his brother a couple weeks ago, too, on top of his son's demise.

But, it's about celebrating new life--the miracle of the Virgin Birth of the Son of God--and the hope that gives. Life goes on. On this earth, beyond it. God makes all things possible.

So, believe in miraculous possibilities today and in the new year.

Feliz Nochebuena...let it truly be a "good night" for us all.

I've placed the "open for requests" post over at the E2E challenge blog.

The above (lame) badge is the one I created just now. I barely know how to work with Powerpoint/Paint, so if anyone is brilliant and can take the Eve/Easter images and work them into something amazing, knock yourself out and comment me the url for it. Or if you know me, email it to me. For now, that's our badge. (Sorry for my picturesmithing uselessness.)

I have 2 to 8 (10 maybe) slots open. We have 10 challengers as of right now. I put up the basic rules in a post on the challenge blog, but refinements are coming. I do get to choose who joins, and I have my criteria. The post lays them out.

Okay, I'm off to start my holidaying Don't really expect to blog until next week, Wed maybe, but who knows.

A Merry Christmas and joyful (holiday of your choice) to all! My heart's desire is for us to become brighter, kinder souls in stronger, leaner bodies in 2012. Let's do it!

E2E 2012...yep, I finally chose a challenge name

Read here...to see what "E2E" stands for.

Can you guess before looking? :)

Here are clues:

I already have my dress--it nearly fits. It's a size 14 Nine West. I fit some 12 and mostly 14's and some 16, depending on cut. My boobs tend to be the deciding factor....cause what fits fine below, won't fit above sometimes, especially snug fit items. The "little black dress"perfectly fits my hips/thighs/waist, but won't zip up where I have that upper torso fat/big boobs. I don't know it boobs/upper back fat will shrink selectively, but I love the simple, classic, sleeveless shift look and I can take a pic showing how far it will/won't zip up. :D

Challenge 2012...still in the planning stage...but firming up (like we will, hah)...and fatphobia for the season? How about l little mercy and good will along with that heaping helping of social critique?

For a bit more of a preview, see this post.

Beth, babe (obesity strike Beth, that is), ya need to let me know if you changed your mind. I don't know if you'll be up for it, but you had asked and I saved you that slot. If you don't want it (when you see the rules), it's A-okay. I know I can be rules-beeyotch. It's that Catholic School upbringing, I think. hah.

And in case you want a glimpse into what an obviously NOT obese blogger thinks of the likes of us (fat folks, once or currently obese), here's a bit of a rant. The good part of the rant--an observation of money perhaps ill-spent, of greedy and self-serving excess in a time of suffering for so many--gets buried under the chilling fatphobia.

And granted, self-destructive behavior on our part (with food and sloth) ain't pretty, but neither is taking the holier than thou attitude about it so that we lose sight of the humanity of those who are slaves to appetite. And yes, when we eat this way, we are slaves to gluttony, whether biologically-driven, emotional-fueled, trauma-derived, or just plain self-indulgently powered.

A bit of mercy is never bad, especially at Christmastime.  We all don't overeat just cause we're a bunch of piggy-pigs who can't be bothered to self-control. And when comfort comes immediately in the form of carbs and fat and protein....maybe look to why we're self-medicating. Some folks use sex. Some cigarettes or drugs. Some music and dancing. Some coffee and conversation. And some cheer themselves or forget their woes and loneliness with cake and beef Wellington.  I've seen too many women who blog and are post-sexual abuse who eat to wear a disguise (fat). And those who have depressive issues (like moi), who used food to fire up some happy chemicals.

It's not always just because we're weak and greedy gluttons. It's often cause we're damaged and look for cheer where we can fastest and most easily find it.

We're all flawed in some way...every single one of us. Perhaps we ought not tempt others with "bad foods". Maybe that is a good lesson to take. Donate some to the food bank and put out a healthier buffet...maybe that's a lesson.

If you're tempted to heap up your plate over and over with non-nutritive, indulgent foods, remember: Someone is thinking THIS about YOU....how does it feel to be seen in this light? Is it accurate? Does it help us NOT indulge to know we're seen as, well, basically,  Jabba the Huts in Food Heat?

I dunno. We are killing ourselves with overeating and poor eating, but these sorts of cruel depictions just seem to fuel more DIVISION and less cooperation. It may be as destructive as greed in the end to look down on others this way...including ourselves.

Okay, got my Pilates done, time for a walk...

Later all...be well...

CDCC Final Update: Pics and Wrap-Up

Tanita-san: 177.4

Starting weight: 184.2

Very few pounds lost, but body composition has changed. I see it, and I feel it. Hubby sees (and feels) it.

The dress totally did not fit when I started the challenge. The pics of that are here.




Here's the dress today:

I still think it will take about 7-15 pounds for it to be absolutely perfect--if the pounds come off the belly and upper back. I hate that upper back fat...but this is how I am built. Even in the 130s as a teen, I was the spider (bulk in the middle).

I went from wearing 16/18 women's jeans (18 if they were small fit designer ones), to now wearing 14 women's comfortably. Even bought a pair of 13 juniors to celebrate (hey, 12 bucks). These are the 13 Junior jeans, with my granny panties showing, cause, really, I ain't got nothing BUT granny panties. hahaha. What I like is that they aren't baggy in the thighs/butt, like "Misses" Jeans tend to be on me. I have that weird pannus/big belly, but my thighs aren't huge....so I'm the reverse of you pear ladies. If only the junior butt/thigh fit was made with the Misses higher waist, I'd be happy. So happy.

Anyway, here is the too low-rise juniors on me, size 13.

Flying my Granny Flag!

How i love the "thigh hug" on these. I have nice hamstrings. :D

So, with a thickish sweater over it, that's about the only way I'd wear these in public. I am not into granny panty flashing, and I refuse to wear itty-bitty stuff with  my big pooch/pannus.

Okay , with the pics outta the way to show progress has been made, let's see how to wrap this up.

I mostly did really well. I'm at a stage where losing is tough. I will no longer to 1200 cals, and I tried refeeding (caused some regain, then I backed off). I was experimenting with a metabolism stimulation program. I will likely continue this experimentation, just to see if I can help some stuff.

But I know I cannot eat anywhere like I have before. We all know this, right? Challenges are a way for me to stay focused. My goal of 160 pounds...well...I don't care when I get there. My priority now is to stay OUT of obesity (for me, the line is at about 185 pounds), and to get closer to goal, as possible, while staying very well nourished on good, solid, real food.

I take that back. I LIKE to get there by this blog's goal of September 3, 2012. Yes, I still would like to MAKE it. But I won't overstress my body to do it. I want to do it as nourished, rested, full of joy as I can. I will not do a TBL bang-up. But yes, 9-3-2012..how nice to beat that date to 160.

I was slack in exercise at points in the last months due to 1. an ankle injury and 2. the holidays right now messing with my schedule. But I know it's too easy to return to couch potatohood, and for the holiday season, I aim to keep to a 2x strengthening and 3 to 4x walking regimen. It's one that isn't too taxing, is feasible, is livable and makes me FEEL GOOD.

I am pretty stable and good with fluids. The DDDY challenges got me into that habit. And it has stuck pretty well.

I am pretty decent at supporting some bloggers, but hey, some days, you're just busy and you lurk. I hope the ones I supported got some good out of my chiming in.

I think, for me, the important thing learned in this challenge is that good habits must be kept up and an open mind must be nurtured. Just cause we did things ONE way, doesn't mean that's the only way. Just cause something worked in the past, it may not work now. I want to stay open to learning. Experimenting.


I've also learned what mainenance kinda feels like. I spent a couple months pretty much maintaining--as defined by varying only a handful of pounds (2 to 5) from one's regular weight (goal weight, current weight, whatever). It's still work. It really is. It is not easy peasy pleasy pie. It's still having focus on eating and moving and hydrating.

No magic wands or bullets people. It's always work. It's always something to be mindful of.

I'm lighter and leaner than when I started. I made progress. I fit (snugly) into my dress. I helped others. I did not quit.

That's what I wanted to do in this challenge, and I did it.

I thank all who participated and supported me. And if you're in the next one with me, let's continue to make progress together. The journey goes on for my "happy weight after"...though I'm darn happy with my "now"....even if I'm a weirdly shaped spider-lady.
; )

Hah.

Happy holidays to us all. (Let's not go on a mad eating spree, right?)

Be well...

Milestone Pics: My First "Medium" Top since the mid 1980s. And back in regular women's sized sneakers!! :D

I wore 11W when I began walking in January.
I'm wearing 10M now. In the same styles, too. :)
Yes. Feet get fat and feet slim down,
along with everything else.

My first "medium" top in decades. I'm ready for
the holiday partaying! Thanks, TJMaxx, for the
purdy and CHEAP tops.

Eat Real Food: My Mantra...might heal some of your conditions....

Real food and nutrition got her out of a wheelchair from M.S.--what can it do for US?

I still feel so sad I can't have seafood. Sniff. Sob.

CDCC Update #13:Back to walking, progress is achingly slow, but hey, size 13 juniors jeans!

Tanita-san: 177.6

For my official weigh-ins on this blog (I do them weekly, see my sidebar left, scroll down), this is a new low. I've seen this number on the scale before, but not in a weigh-in.

I really wanna break down past 177 and up my ticker to 122 lbs lost. Aaaah, dat would be nice.

But I'm okay with achingly slow progress, as the blog entry title puts it. I know, well enough, that as you get closer to goal weight, it's just a crawl. Barring starvation, which I ain't gonna do. I refuse to do. Period. I'd rather take another year, or TWO years to lose 17 or 18 pounds than do more metabolic damage. Ain't doing it.

So, I continue to focus on the positives. Feeling great. Looking good. My husband's dazzlingly adoring praise. I mean, I got the "You are awesome, you're beautiful" compliments even at 300 lbs, but not anywhere near the frequency and fervency I get it these days. And part of that, I'm sure, is that I FEEL IT, when I did not feel it before. I feel sexy again. I may be old and gravity-afflicted and crinkly and whatever, but I feel sexy. And I think that transfers, the attitude, not just the physical change.

I wore my snug Karen Kane dress to visit relatives yesterday, without shapewear--yeah, I'm brave!--and I felt girly and attractive and...man...ain't no cookie worth that feeling. Not a slice of pizza is worth that feeling. No soda pop, cake, bag of chips, ice cream bar or anything self-destructive foodwise is worth that feeling of liking how you look and loving how you FEEL...how your body feels....how it sits and stands and walks and bends. It feels so good!!!!

And, most surprisingly....though the loss is so minimal....

I went jeans hunting at ROSS (looking for bargains!), cause the jeans that were snug a month ago are not so snug anymore, and the but area has got some room and droop and the waist needs to be belted.  There weren't any in the women's area, so I headed out of curiosity to the juniors section. Well, long story short, I fit into a 13 juniors. The butt looked great. Nice and snug. All zippered up, too. Partay in the dressing room!!!!

I should upload pics of my thighs in that. I love how you can see the curve of my hamstrings. Purdy. I love that curve.

The top and dress I bought in size L fit quite fine, no snugness. I didn't even have to glance at the XL. :D

So, challenge particulars:

Fluids: fine but for one day, when I just sort of...spazzed. Yeah.

Exercise: met challenge minimum (2x Pilates, 3x walking) and added a bit of dancing.

Support: I was out there, and I commented. 

Calories: Sticking to around 1500

Mood: very good

And I ain't quitting!

Keep your head in the game and keep your hands reaching toward only good stuff. Right?

Yeah.

Be well...

Bluezy is Fricken Brilliant!

She was inspired by my progress pics (the Playwalking one had kinda this pose and outfit). And, of course, my "royal" avatar....(I used to have a pink-begowned, tiara-ed, and Latina looking princess as my illustration avatar for years.)

How cool is that visual??? I love it!


Bluezy, big thanks and a sisterly smoochies!  Ready to make your own, with a Jayne Mansfield-ish vibe, for your blog. Let's all whip it into shape.

Tough love fat-fighting!!!!

Ah, Tanita-San is making me happy again, allergies are not making me happy--again--and today I really hate all you &^%#$*&^% Meth Addicts! AND..SparkPeople on Worst Diet Scams of 2011....Plus the joy of OPTIONS!

Tanita-san: 177.6

:) Maybe this week will see a new low-low, at last.

I went back to my 2 meals and a high protein shake/snack, instead of 2-3 meals and 2 protein shakes...calories are still 1600 roughly, but I'm back to I.F.-ing and walking. Obviously, that helps with getting back down from regain, but what it will do metabolically, dunno. Still, nice to see the low side again.

Very noticeable to me when I woke up, too. I got a Fed-Ex and tried on my first pair of dress pants since the late 80s. When you have a huge protuberant belly, huuuuuge, like I had, pantsthat hook/button/zip just look weird. Apple gals know what I mean. So, I defaulted to stretch pants, leggings, yoga pants (and yoga pants I adore and imagine I always will cause nothing more comfy).

Well, these were Evan Picone size 14 suit pants (I got a suit). They fit perfectly in the hips, fell smoothly, no huge belly bulge. Even a bit loose in the waist. I was so happy. If I hadn't been nekkid (didn't even have undies on when I tried them), I'd have snapped a shot. But me, with bedhead and topless, you ain't gonna see.

So, I have a suit again. I have zip jeans and zip dress slacks again. This is so fricken exciting!!!

I do have to remember to disassociate from these clothes. I don't want to mentally attach to my new dresses and suit and pants and jeans and then not want to lose in order to stay fitting in them. I need to just say, "Some other size 14 person, maybe my banker SIL, can put them to use!" And release it. Or I know, psychologically, I'll hang. Cause I finally have a WARDROBE.

I finally have red and purple and green and blue and pink and magenta  dresses and tops...and most are now form-fitting, not loose tents to hide in. It's not a just a bunch of dark grey and black with some navy in my closet. Though I adore black and I look kickass good in black, so I'll always buy lots of black. I feel girly again..with options. It's not just the same black outfits over and over to cover up my bulk when we go out. OPTIONS!

Aside from energy, flexibility, and mobility--the best things about a body that's not obese--the options for dressing up makes me so happy. It's not an agony to think about what to wear to dinner out or a wedding or a party or a holiday event or a date-night. I can just walk in my closet and have real choices. It's not just elastic waist anymore. It's not cover it all up anymore.

Skirt. Dress. Leggings. Slacks. Zipper Jeans. Yoga Pants. Suit. Colors.

I am in a frenzy of joy about having options.

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I'm also thinking more about the 2012 challenge I'm planning, and I wrote a few more thoughts on it over at the CDCC blog.  Pretty much, it's already half-full (unless the pre-approved, blog-post mentioned folks decide not to go on ahead with it.)

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Anyway, so, the allergies are still annoying. I went to get some Sudafed at CVS, and I had to go through the whole annoyance of waiting in line for the pharmacy tech to get it for me (when for all my adult life, it used to be OTC). I tried the Sudafed PE and it's crap. For hardcore allergic folks, that stuff's dreck. I need the real thing...the one all you fricken meth addicts and manufacturers out there have now made a protected, behind the counter item for which I have to sign an affidavit and can only get 10 pills. Great. For anyone who's had bad bronchitis/flu and needs decongesting you know that 10 pills can go mighty fast.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH, YOU IDIOT METHHEADS, FOR WASTING MY DAMN TIME! All of us with colds, flus, and allergies really appreciate having to take the extra effort to get decongested. :::dripping sarcasm::::

Okay, had to let that rant out. Ah, well. I guess I'll have hubby pick up a pack for me up in the next county and hope the FBI understands I'm a lifelong allergic type and not out to manufacture stupid-ass illegal drugs in my back room. Sigh. I like to have a stash (previously 24 or more pills type of stash, cause if you take some every 4 to 6 hours when sick, that's not even enough to cover a bout of bronchitis that last 3 weeks, but it will cover a few days of allergy attack or a milder cold) in the medicine cabinet for when the seasonal ickies hit. Guess making a stash these days means alerting the authorities.....

So, there it is. I'm lighter, stuffier, full of options, and annoyed at pharmaceutical shenanigans.

And looking forward to some concorde pears tomorrow in the organic coop. Best....pears...evah!!!

Hope your Tuesday goes well. Eat soundly and move healthfully and smile a lot...and, psssssttt,  if you have some spare Sudafed, chat me up. ;P

And did you avoid the Worst Diet Scams of 2011 (chosen SparkPeople)?

CDCC Update #12: Man, think I'm coming down with something, boo...and the scale is still down, yay...

Tanita-San: 178.4

I'm putting this "short for me" post as a possible placeholder here, as I have to head out for a family party. But man, I do not feel spiffy. I can't tell at this point if it's allergies, a cold, an asthma flare, a combination of the previous, or whatever. Might be an active "attack thyroid" phase. I just feel off. A bit stuff. A bit tight in the throat. A bit heavy in the chest. A bit draggy.

I'm gonna take a big dose of C, drink hot green tea, and think positive thoughts.

December is a bad month for me, nearly always. Things bloom that mess me up. I hope my better overeal health status helps me get through it better than so many years past.

I got back to walking yesterday. 30 minutes. No ankle disaster. Yay. Did have some breathing "less than"...so, will monitor. May need to hit the steroids again to get through December's assault.

Fluids were fine this week. Exercise was lax--just some dancing and the walking. No Pilates. I supported fellow challengers. I kept the faith.

If I want to add anything, will do so later, but wanted to enter my linky before I leave the house.

Happy Sunday, all, and be well.

One bit of advice for those who haven't dieted yet, but plan to in 2012...and a linky to one great blog entry to read today.

My advice for those obese/overweight folks who want to lose weight in 2012, but have not dieted yet:

GO BUILD A TON OF MUSCLE FIRST. Then go on your healthful weight loss plan.

Seriously, after all these years of experimenting, reading, trying, losing, the single best advice I can give a person who is about to embark on a plan is...spend 2 to 4 months building as much muscle as you can. Eat good protein and work out with weights. Get muscle. Lots of it.

Cause when you go on a caloric deficit diet, you're gonna burn away muscle. If you're one of the metabolically challenged, you're gonna burn a helluva lot of muscle.

So, start first with a good muscle architecture to support that loss. And you'll just plain look better when you do lose weight. :)

Now, the link:  I love Evelyn of Carb Sane Asyum. She's a smart, scientifically-minded cookie who critiques the science behind claims. I like gadflies. They keep us from becoming blind-ideologues to dieting ideas. Her critiques focus mostly on the very low carb side of things, and it's valuable to have the dissenting perspective, especially from someone who did VLCarb to lose weight. She's worth reading, whether you are for, against, or indifferent to low-carbing. I"m a moderate carber (avoid most starch, eat fruits and veggies), and I know the value of it FOR ME. And I think it's valuable for diabetic/I.R. folks. But I think her blog post today is a bit of a remedy for any sort of blind allegiance to a program.

Bodies are different. Some are metabolically charged to be lean, others to store fat. Some are ill, some are vibrantly healthy. Some handle starches well, some don't.  I firmly believe in finding what works for YOU and your life and your medical conditons (or lack thereof).

My husband thrives on less starch, lots more protein. He can eat all day and his setpoint keeps him lean now. Before, with lots of starch and sugars, he got fat. He doesn't have to count calories (like moi) now. He can eat galore and stay in a 3 lb range. His setpoint is a lean one now. :)

Me, I'm different.

You're different.

If you're gluten sensitive, stay the hell away from gluten, but find what works in terms of food ratios. Maybe you can eat a bucketful of potatoes and be lean and fit. Maybe not.

If you're vegan, and that makes you feel great, power to you. Do it.

If you want to do very low carb and that works for your body and health, do it. And keep abreast of what might happen later on.

Cause, what works now, may not work later. Bodies change as we age.

Know thyself. Know thyself and...be adaptable to changes.

And be well....

ONE MONTH LEFT IN 2011 TO TRANSFORM: Oh, and Told Ya I'd Get That Ticker Number BACK! Still with Challenge on the Brain...

Tanita-san: 178.2

Okay, that feels better. I hated losing ticker ground.  I'm eating rather generous meals, but heavy on veggies and protein, and only 2. Third meal is a protein shake or a snackish type (like cottage cheese and fruit or yogurt with cucumber n' herbs or with fruit n' nuts). Calories have ranged from 1400 to 1900, and in between since Thanksgiving Day. Trying to stay on the LOWER end, but not too low any day, cause, hey, more starvation body derangement, I don't need.

Still tinkering with the 2012 challenge. If you have brilliant title insights, let me know. For now, I got nuthin' dazzling.

BUT THERE IS ONLY ONE MONTH LEFT IN 2011.

If you've been lollygagging, it's time to work it.

If you think you can wait for January 1--stop dat. Stop thinking stupid stuff like that. Start now. Right in the middle of this afternoon. Start this evening with dinner. Do not put it off.

Dec 1. Last Month. One month left. What can you do in ONE month?

A lot. A little. Some. But you can do it and avoid seeing 2012 the same as 2011 or heavier. You can make amazing changes in ONE month. It's possible.

On to other "me" stuff...

Ankle is much improved (though can't say knees are making me thrilled), so I expect to be back to walking Saturday,  Monday latest. I made it worse by not resting enough after the sprain and neuropathy, and I'm not taking chances. I am so eager. I miss my walks. I miss how I felt just me and the breeze and the sky and the trees. Aaaah.

I had errands yesterday, so I put on my only pair of zipper/button jeans that fit nicely (slightly loose at waist, but I use a belt). I hadn't worn button/zipper jeans in ages, cause my belly was so huge, I could not find a pair that fit right. If they fit my belly, the front hip/ thigh area was a big, loose, ugly empty space.  But I can fit in jeans more normally now--though I'm still a belly-fat prone body type.

So, in my zipper jeans and purple snug sweater and Puma flats--and feeling mighty attractive, even with "unfresh" hair, I might add, a feeling that's still novel and fun--I went and got my organic coop stuff last night.

Button & Zip Jeans...

I'm set with some nice goodies today--spinach, tomatoes, pink grapefruit, oranges (all stuff I love for BKFST),  brussel sprouts, avocados (hass), cucumbers, apples (two varieties), pears, parsnips (never had em), broccoli, cilantro, kale.... Hey, the makings of guacamole in there!

I let the coop coordinator keep my share of beets. I just didn't figure I'd eat em, so why let em go to waste. She and her fam juice stuff, and beets are great juiced. 

I also went to TJ Maxx for new stuff. As you saw with the jeans pic, the body changes are showing up in how my clothes are fitting. So, stuff that fit fine or snug in September and October are now starting to not fit as great. I bought some new yoga pants, some tops, and I tried on these pair of size 14 designer suede pants that looked so fabulous on me that I was just flirting with myself in the mirror in the dressing room. Dang. But they were expensive and I have weight to lose. I refuse to pay 150 bucks (reduced from250) for pants I may only wear 2 months. But dang, so purdy!

The yoga pants were size large. :) The jeans were 16. The tops were all L. No XL this time around. :) And they looked pretty good, too. Shopping for clothes hasn't been this fun since I was in my 20's....

Remember--one month in 2011. A new year awaits. Get ready. Be change-minded.

I do hope you all are having a day that takes you one step closer to your goal, your dreams, your joy. Realize your potentials, babycakes!