:) Maybe this week will see a new low-low, at last.
I went back to my 2 meals and a high protein shake/snack, instead of 2-3 meals and 2 protein shakes...calories are still 1600 roughly, but I'm back to I.F.-ing and walking. Obviously, that helps with getting back down from regain, but what it will do metabolically, dunno. Still, nice to see the low side again.
Very noticeable to me when I woke up, too. I got a Fed-Ex and tried on my first pair of dress pants since the late 80s. When you have a huge protuberant belly, huuuuuge, like I had, pantsthat hook/button/zip just look weird. Apple gals know what I mean. So, I defaulted to stretch pants, leggings, yoga pants (and yoga pants I adore and imagine I always will cause nothing more comfy).
Well, these were Evan Picone size 14 suit pants (I got a suit). They fit perfectly in the hips, fell smoothly, no huge belly bulge. Even a bit loose in the waist. I was so happy. If I hadn't been nekkid (didn't even have undies on when I tried them), I'd have snapped a shot. But me, with bedhead and topless, you ain't gonna see.
So, I have a suit again. I have zip jeans and zip dress slacks again. This is so fricken exciting!!!
I do have to remember to disassociate from these clothes. I don't want to mentally attach to my new dresses and suit and pants and jeans and then not want to lose in order to stay fitting in them. I need to just say, "Some other size 14 person, maybe my banker SIL, can put them to use!" And release it. Or I know, psychologically, I'll hang. Cause I finally have a WARDROBE.
I finally have red and purple and green and blue and pink and magenta dresses and tops...and most are now form-fitting, not loose tents to hide in. It's not a just a bunch of dark grey and black with some navy in my closet. Though I adore black and I look kickass good in black, so I'll always buy lots of black. I feel girly again..with options. It's not just the same black outfits over and over to cover up my bulk when we go out. OPTIONS!
Aside from energy, flexibility, and mobility--the best things about a body that's not obese--the options for dressing up makes me so happy. It's not an agony to think about what to wear to dinner out or a wedding or a party or a holiday event or a date-night. I can just walk in my closet and have real choices. It's not just elastic waist anymore. It's not cover it all up anymore.
Skirt. Dress. Leggings. Slacks. Zipper Jeans. Yoga Pants. Suit. Colors.
I am in a frenzy of joy about having options.
I'm also thinking more about the 2012 challenge I'm planning, and I wrote a few more thoughts on it over at the CDCC blog. Pretty much, it's already half-full (unless the pre-approved, blog-post mentioned folks decide not to go on ahead with it.)
Anyway, so, the allergies are still annoying. I went to get some Sudafed at CVS, and I had to go through the whole annoyance of waiting in line for the pharmacy tech to get it for me (when for all my adult life, it used to be OTC). I tried the Sudafed PE and it's crap. For hardcore allergic folks, that stuff's dreck. I need the real thing...the one all you fricken meth addicts and manufacturers out there have now made a protected, behind the counter item for which I have to sign an affidavit and can only get 10 pills. Great. For anyone who's had bad bronchitis/flu and needs decongesting you know that 10 pills can go mighty fast.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH, YOU IDIOT METHHEADS, FOR WASTING MY DAMN TIME! All of us with colds, flus, and allergies really appreciate having to take the extra effort to get decongested. :::dripping sarcasm::::
Okay, had to let that rant out. Ah, well. I guess I'll have hubby pick up a pack for me up in the next county and hope the FBI understands I'm a lifelong allergic type and not out to manufacture stupid-ass illegal drugs in my back room. Sigh. I like to have a stash (previously 24 or more pills type of stash, cause if you take some every 4 to 6 hours when sick, that's not even enough to cover a bout of bronchitis that last 3 weeks, but it will cover a few days of allergy attack or a milder cold) in the medicine cabinet for when the seasonal ickies hit. Guess making a stash these days means alerting the authorities.....
So, there it is. I'm lighter, stuffier, full of options, and annoyed at pharmaceutical shenanigans.
And looking forward to some concorde pears tomorrow in the organic coop. Best....pears...evah!!!
Hope your Tuesday goes well. Eat soundly and move healthfully and smile a lot...and, psssssttt, if you have some spare Sudafed, chat me up. ;P
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