Last Update: 181.2 Waist 35
Intitial weight: 183.0 Waist 35
Though I hate going below 1500 cals, I had a couple roughly 1200-1300 cal days, split between two meals. I don't feel satisfied with itsy bitsy 300 or so cal meals. I do feel satisfied with 600-650 cal meals...so this is how I roll these days. When I eat 1500-1600, I just add a smaller yogurt-berry-nuts meal or a protein shake or some other "lesser" meal.
I have not felt hungry. I have felt cravings. I've been in this dieting gig long enough to know the difference. If it's a particular food I want, but I tell myself I can have this other on-plan food, and my mouth doesn't want it, it's a craving. For instance:
My craving: "Oh, lasagna sounds good."
Me: "You can have steamed broccoli with some lowfat cheddar."
My craving: "No, I want lasagna. Or pizza."
Me: "You can have a pear with walnuts. Or veggie soup. Now, pick one."
Craving: "Forget it. :::pout:::"
I also let my hand go to where I'm FEELING the food desire. If it's more face/throat/mouth--it's emotional or oral craving. If it's more to the belly, and especially if I feel emptier than normal, that sort of "light" feeling, it's hunger.
If I drink water or wait 30 minutes and it lessens, it's a craving or thirst. If I wait 30 minutes and it's worse, it's hunger.
And having cravings return is probably due to the general "not feeling well" thing. When I feel draggy, my brain probably interprets it as, "Oh, I need food, cause I'm not energetic." Well, I didn't' need food, so I had to tell the cravings to take a hike. Repeatedly. Sigh.
I did give in to a craving last night. I wanted my mother's version of Nicoise salad. She used to make it with codfish, boiled potatoes, boiled green beans, boiled eggs, and olive oil.
I had some organic taters, so I boiled them up. I can't have seafood, and I didn't have any green beans, so it was just 2 boiled eggs, taters, olive oil and salt. In a small portion. Not the big ones I'd eat of my mom's. It was really very comforting. Something in me wanted comfort (hence the pizza, lasagna trigger bingey food cravings, too), maybe just cause I didn't feel WELL this month, this week. It hit the spot. 300 calories of comfort. QUASI-NICOISEY. (kwah-see nee-Swah-see, which is fun to say!)
I'm gonna get some green beans, and maybe have it again with some added non-starchy veggies, or just dump it on greens. Wish I could have the codfish, too, but wishes won't get me a new immune system, so....
Fluids were great.
Exercise: Goals not met, but I had one very good Pilates session (1 hour) and 3 walking days (30 mins). I was short 1 walking session and 1 strengthening session.
Support: I met the minimum and then some, but I have not been very active commenting/reading blogs, like in the past.
Book: I dipped into SMARTER SCIENCE OF SLIM, as I got myself a softcover version (I had the e-book). It's easier to flip back and forth and I like using my highlighters. I was calculating how to make it work with fewer calories and not REGAIN....with the reality that I do very well (or did in the past) when I was in the 35-35-30 or 40-30-30 macronutrient ratios. I really need to keep fat to 30% and carbs no more than 40%, and that was always my sweet spot. About 100 grams of carbs (400 cals of carbs), 100 to 150 g of protein (400-600 cals, Smarter Science of Slim would recommend 150 grams ) As you can see, that's already 800 to 1000 calories worth, which leaves about 400 calories for fat. That's 1200-1400 minimum! I start regaining when I near 1700, so 1600 is kinda my "border marker". If I use more calories, I'd go for fat--cause I like using nuts and olive oil and coconut oil.
Mood: Considering the lethargy, pretty good. I keep the faith. And the hope.
So, I continue to work on it. I believe I can find a livable, enjoyable eating plan in those ratios. Just gotta do the work.
This week, my goal is to implement my adaptation of SSofS's plan and to track consistently to check my ratios and get closer to what I think will benefit me most in this stage of my game, where regain is crazy easy, body doesn't need a lot of calories, making getting a deficit HARDER and HARDER and where my body is
Always nurture the hope. And let's be very strong as we move on...no quitting!