Tuesday, January 17, 2012

E2E Midweek Update: Fighting through the Fog with Laughter and Simpler Food...

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I was gonna do the update tomorrow, but I wanted to do it early as I want to put up my review and giveaway post tomorrow (or Thursday, if I feel blah and flake). So, heads up for those who want a chance to win the TRANSFORMATION ROAD book by weight-loss superchamp Sean Anderson. :D

And the update:

First, my challenge quotes, cause I need to READ THEM:

"The ability to discipline yourself to delay gratification in the short term in order to enjoy greater rewards in the long term is the indispensable prerequisite for success." 
~~Maxwell Maltz

" For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ~~Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

Okay, I'm mostly sleeping, reading, or ...drinking tea.

Appetite has been suppressed the last two days, which is good in one way (not tempted to overeat at all) and bad (may be a sign of seriously even-more-crapped-up metabolism)--but just may probably be a reactive consequence of a bit too much intake at the Sunday family birthday event.

I took veggie egg white frittatas (instead of a Spanish omelette, as my energy level was making me not want to peel, chop, flip, etc). I took fruit (blueberries and cherries). I took my tea and coconut water. I took gluten free millet bread to have with my sister's bocadito spread (yep, that was my indulgence.) No sweets or cake or stuff at the birthday party. But I did have lots of protein from ham, cheese, frittatas, had salad and fruit, but also more starch than I'm used to, as SIL made an eggplant-potato bake, and I had about a 1/2 cup, and that's after two slices of millet bread (30 carbs for the bread alone, not counting cherries, potato, etc). Very tasty and garlicky veggie bake, though. Really, do not regret the numsiness. Just the starchiness.

Unfortunately, having the extra starch and carbs made me hungry again a few hours later. Normally, if I have my protein/veggie/fruit meals sans starch, I just am not snacky/hungry for a looooooooooooooong time.  I had a self-indulgent blue-cheese on romaine salad with bacon bits and chopped tomato...and 3 to 3 1/2 ounces of beef fillet with green beans and a ton of fluids. The salt alone in that salad was self-indulgent, never mind the calories. At least it was not a starchy meal.

That was Sunday. Could have been better!

I slept oodles Monday, ate lightly. Slept 9 hours last night, and forced myself to get up and not just doze away... and decided to do something about my hair. Energy level was suppressed, so I hadn't been as careful with hair grooming. Clarified, conditioned, and I'm back to looking like myself, which always helps. :)

I'm trying to keep my mood up, cause whether it's thyroid issues or other hormonal stuff, depression has been a bane in my life since age 9. I've been perky and happy and upbeat for a good spell now, and what a blessing! I do not want this to turn into the black dog visiting again.

Whatever is the cause of the low energy and high-need-for-sleep--and without further examination, it could be thyroid, anemia, pre-depressive hormone wackiness, or winter, who the hell knows?--is not gonna defeat me. I keep talking positive. Made an appointment with primary doc for Friday to get new Rx's (I'm out of some refills).

My main concern, other than "Please, do not let this be a return of the depression that fell of me beautifully back in 2010", is regain. I am fine maintaining. Was chatting with middle sis, and the truth, I told her, is I could stay this weight and be fine. I look in the mirror and feel good. I see my reflection in shop windows when I go out walking, and think, "Nice."

Regain, though, would bum me out. Right now, I'm pretty careful 98% of the time. Family events tend to be when I slack a bit (not a lot). Sunday was an aberration, which I chalk up to whatever is weirdly going on with my body and the effect of starch along with mood. I simply don't get very hungry much these days, so eating more than my usual feels..."unlike me". Like someone else.

And I want to stay that way. I want smaller, simpler meals to BE ME...for the years to come. Simple. Smaller. Cleaner.

Okay, so my update is basically, "Hanging on with hope. Not doing badly, but not doing optimally."

And keeping the laughter up. THIS HELPED. Lord, that was a funny manga. Am looking forward to updates. Hey, we find our giggles and guffaws where we can! :)

I look forward to feeling zippy again when I wake up. To sleeping 8 hours not 10 or 12. To seeing more progress...or no loss of progress. To being the new me...not revert to an old me. Because new me ..I like her. :D

Hope my fellow challengers are doing well. I simply am not hitting your blogs much with the vimless state upon me. So, please take good care of each other...and be well.

UPDATE:  Talked myself out of the droopies and went for a 30 minute brisk walk. Gotta admit---it was therapeutic. Even got a wolf whistle. hah. Felt good to move. Soothing mentally, invigorating physically (some). I have enough mojo to go hit the supermarket. To this funk, I say, "Drop dead, you annoying beeyotch. "


Karen Butler Ogle said...

I'm sorry you are feeling down, Princess. I will keep you in my thoughts. It is just that time of year for many of us. Try to hang in there. Spring is just around the corner. Hugs.

Jo said...

We're doing fine, just hoping you will soon feel like jumping back in with both feet. Nice to hear from you. Feel better soon.

Julie said...

It must be contagious Mir, it just has to be. I'm not up to par, emotional stuff but still just not up there right now.
I hope you get to feeling better soon. Hang in there.
Take car eand have a blessed evening.

Chinagirl said...

Sounds like you are having a hard time. But I admire your strong decision to stay in the race. What a pain that you can not just go and see you doc and get some examinations done right away.
Stay positive and strong, beautiful princess. No te vayas a desanimar!

Betty said...

YOu can beat this. I know you can. I´m here praying for you and hope you will feel back to your old/new self soon!

lv2 said...

It may just be a combination of things. I want spring but it's just Jan. I'd like to climb into bed with a pile of books, junk food and get up in a month or two....I hope that after you get checked out you will be back to walking and doing what keeps you doing so well. You do look great where you are now and maintaining is also hard....so just keep dancing along.

Eaba said...

Sorry your feeling bad, like others said it must be in the air or something. I had a rotten day yesterday all depressed and anxious with tears and all... Who know what's going on with us these days. Let's link arms and stay strong together!

Nanette said...

OH no!!! I get what you're feeling. I have a depressive cycle that happens about every 4 or 5 years. It usually lasts about a year and it's coming up soon. I'm damned determined that exercise and eating right is going to help lessen the blow this time around though.

I'm so glad that you got out and went on that walk. Maintaining is a good goal for now. I'm sorry that it's so tough right now. Really I wish I could give you a magic phrase or something to get you through.

Keep us posted about the DR. appointment. I'm concerned for you.

Jordan said...

Glad that you seem to be a little more upbeat, even if only a little, even if it's just giving your fears a name. Focusing on those small steps, one foot in front of the other. Glad you got out yesterday, to feel the sun and the fresh air and MOVE. Glad you're going to A doctor tomorrow to touch base. I'm thinking about you and sending you strength.

Anne H said...

I LOVE how much you love your Anime!
You always have a kind word to say.
You are one of the good ones.
Those cycles.... mine have been sorta silly nowadays.
I look at my life and say "Really?"
I guess it comes and goes.