Sunday, February 26, 2012

E2E Challenge Update #8: The UPs and Downs of Birthday Week....but there is light...

Note: Placeholding for update as I'm rushing. We have to drive about an hour north to meet up with some friends of my hubby's family at a super-posh resort, and I'm stressing about hair, nails, dress, knees, pain, etc. I'm so not a posh person, and I'm mildly freaking about "Will I screw up dinner table etiquette?" Sigh.... Will complete update tomorrow...

Tanita-San:181.4
Waist: 35

Both up some from last week...with no big surprise. I went mildly wild on my birthday and ate more overall in the last week. Part of it was no doubt comfort eating. Part of it was that once you let go...well, in my experince, once *I* let go....reining in is hugely more difficult. Ongoing self-control just tends to make for easier living than loosening the reins and then trying to scale back. Might be different for you, but I have noticed this in some research on overeating and in some bloggers, who just can't seem to get it together for weeks (or more) after a vacation or binge or going off plan.

I will say that the combo of meds, fighting spirit, prayer...it's starting to work. Today, I still felt a bit wonky, but I also felt the rising tide. Energy seemed closer to normal than it has been for WEEKS. Pain in the shoulders, elbows and feet was markedly decreased, while the knees are a bit more stable, though still painful. Hips in certain positions make their displeasure known, so stretching has become super-essential.

Fluids: mostly fine. Didn't drink enough on birthday.

Calories: pretty crappy. About 2500 on birthday (and remember, I regain at around 1700), and pretty much at 1600-1800, up and down, all week. Not good. Not good. But getting better. The wild cravings that birthday weekend provoked are subsiding. And that feels good.

The improvement in energy meant I could post a bit more and comment supportively a bit more. I surpassed the challenge minimum.

Mood: improving. I laugh more. I feel lighter. I can only be grateful that the threat of depression, another real episode, was just that--a threat. (Knock wood.)

I read a bit of my willpower book, and I like the anatomy/physiolog part as how it relates to the "I want", "I will", "I won't" functions. I think once I get into the more pragmatic applications, my mojo will rise, too. As it is, today is the first day in weeks that I felt like my motivation to resume this journey is coming back. And that is a huge relief. Apathy sucks. No question about that.

And my toes are red again. :D Good sign...

And the quotes for this challenge:



"The ability to discipline yourself to delay gratification in the short term in order to enjoy greater rewards in the long term is the indispensable prerequisite for success." 
~Maxwell Maltz
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 
~Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

8 comments:

Karen Butler Ogle said...

Good luck at the dinner, Princess. II am not comfortable at formal affairs either. I prefer casual. Can't wait to see your update.:)

downsizers said...

I read somewhere that you should watch what other people do and then follow when at a formal dinner. I wouldn't know what to do either. I usually eat with my hands :-)

Jo said...

Just be your charming self and you will be fine. Elbows off the table, of course.

Miss April said...

I'm sure you will do great at dinner, looking forward to your update. You have a winning personality, they'll be all yours within five minutes of sitting down. Happy Sunday.

Julie said...

Just smile your beautiful smile and no one will notice which fork your eating with or your napkin is on the wrong knee. Don't fret, take care and have a blessed event.

Nanette said...

Always forward, right!? No birthday dinners this week. :)

Jordan said...

Ah, the red toes test! For me, an indicator of how in control I am is how many dirty dishes are in the sink. I like washing dishes, so if the dirty ones are stacking up, that means I don't care. Personal hygiene, extended to the kitchen.

So glad you're feeling better!!

upinthecosmos said...

I find that I don't like to wear jewelry when I'm not feeling good about myself... I'm not a big make up person but I do have to have the toenails painted when they are being shown otherwise it's closed toe shoes for this girl:-) I don't really care to paint them in the winter although it would be nicer so maybe I should! So glad to see that you are feeling better and getting back on track!!