I'm still dietarily screwing up. I'm on a feta and Greek olives streak, and even had two gluten free cookies last night, so today I'm at 182 lbs on the scale. Yes, yes, this is BAD. BAD!
I'm a dork. Yes, yes. I am a dork.
I'm a dork praying like heck and trying to elevate my mood. Part of that has been viewing happy stuff and reading well-written stuff.
Today a particular search engine result just killed my mood. Here's what happened: I wanted to check in with a blogger I hadn't visited in like, well, more than year at least. I didn't remember the name of the blog. Just that this was a Western gal married to a Japanese guy with two adorable sons and that Noboru was the name of either her son or husband (I forget). So, I searched for "housewife Japan two sons Noboru" to see if the blog would pop up.
BING (which got hijacked into being my default search tool when I downloaded a Veoh player a couple months ago) set me up with a list of filthy links. I mean, the first link TITLE was so gross, I won't even retype it. Let's just say it had to do with incest. (barf) These are links no one in their right mind would click. Seriously.
I then went to my usual preferred browser, Google, and behold. No disgusting list. The first search item is a Wikipedia article referring to a novel by Haruki Murakami, and the rest are literary, obituary, and travel links. No freakasoid-pervo-porno crap.
BING...what is wrong with you? Really, I need to figure out how to remove this from my Firefox toolbar. Sigh. I tried to go back to Google as my default, but obviously I did not try hard enough.
I got lazy.
And this brings me back to ME and MY LESS THAN IDEAL EATING this week. Less than ideal exercising, too. (A repeat of last week). I didn't try hard enough.
I got lazy.
It seems that instead of the wonderful Google version of my "diet engine"--getting the good results-- I'm operating on BING and being rewarded with trash results.
I'm eating carelessly (though thankfully I'm not in binge mode). I'm lazy about exercising. And I'm regaining weight.
I haven't figured out (or tried hard to figure out) how to remove Bing from my Firefox tool bar. I haven't figured out (or even tried hard to do the things to figure out) how to get back to Google verson of Princess Dieter in my diet engine.
Sloth kills. Laziness doesn't offer us rewards that are beneficial.
Or at least makes us see disgusting results we'd rather not.
I gotta get back to being a better, cleaner, tighter, stronger diet engine as my DEFAULT. I need to be Google Princess Dieter again. Well, I'm not alone, but that's small comfort.
And I'm gonna now Google up some more searches to see if I can find that Japanese homemaker's blog. Really cute kids make me smile. :D
Update: Found the blog after adding "vacation Hawaii", as I recalled her posting about that. Kids are still supercute. :D Had forgotten they eat a host of diet-unfriendly foods!