Showing posts with label conditioned hypereating. Show all posts
Showing posts with label conditioned hypereating. Show all posts

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Day 37 of Phase 5: Japanese Dinner Out, Election Day, Vote For Your Health Today! And Why I Believe That Food Addiction is Possible, though I'm Not Fanatical About It! :)

We had Japanese food last night. I am still amazed that I don't inhale everything in front of me anymore in restaurants and we end up with so much to doggy bag home. The soy sauce/sodium always makes me bloat. But man, that tofu yakitori was so good. I have to be very careful about tofu, but this was worth any endocrine disruptions. Grilled with a light sauce on top. Nice. We got a bunch of grilled sticks of yakitori--pork tenderloin, tofu, zucchini, mushroom, green pepper. Hubby got the roasted corn.

I drank lots of water and green tea and just accept a bit of bloat come next morning. Behold: Half a pound up.

Tanita-san: 217.4

I felt a little weird in a Japanese place, cause part of me wanted to offer sympathies and part of me thought that was crazy dorky cause, well, yeah....you can see, I was a bit conscious of the events in Japan post disaster. Still really sad. Going out to eat was part of just getting away from CNN. I've been glued to it, having crying jags on and off depending on what horror story of loss is shown. I can't handle it too well when a mom talks about her daughter being swept away in the tsunami, a man losing his wife, another not finding his parents and wondering if they are buried in the rubble. I feel a bit like I did on 9-11...unable to turn off the tv and wishing time could turn back and we could warn everyone...

Today is election day. I'm going to vote after posting this. I'm gonna put on my walking sneaks and clothes, walk to the poll, vote, then do my regular walk.

I voted for my health with breakfast. Egg white omelette with spinach, mushrooms, onions, lower sodium and lower fat Swiss cheese,  and assorted Mrs. Dash seasonings thrown in. More sodium I don't need today. I had papaya with lime as my fruit (lots of potassium to debloat). It's my fave type of breakfast (veggie-cheese omelette and fruit) cause it keeps me full and I get a lot of protein and phytonutrients, vitamins and minerals. It keeps me full for hours, too. It's a habit now. My first choice.

What did you do today to vote FOR your health?

I visited a blog today I got off a link from another blog I visited (um, maybe Sunshine's Heart?) and left a comment.

I don't hold the same position as the blogger who owns the blog, but I respect her position. This is an iffy area for me. I never used to believe in food addiction. Now, I'm not so sure we can dismiss it so easily. One thing I've learned as a gal who has had chronic health issues since infancy--I'm created from an old egg of mama's, my sis says, half-teasingly on occasion--is that when I've made observations of X or Y or Z phenomenon or effects over the years to docs about this or that condition, I was often dismissed as "anecdotal". Then, years later, the science caught up to those anecdotes of mine and I was vindicated. :) So....

I hold the same sort of thing here. I think we're going to find that certain created foods in our world act as "drugs" the way heroin, cocaine, and meth can act as addictive drugs. God's nature doesn't have ice cream, pizza, cakes, pies, cookies, awsome blossoms, baby back ribs drenched in BBQ sauce with a side of fries. These are created items, and if you read Kessler's THE END OF OVEREATING (the book that changed my dieting life), you will see as studies and insights rack up, one after another, that we have created what seems to be addictive foods to a certain segment of the population. And we keep doing that, making them more HYPERPALATABLE and "addictive".

Kessler doesn't call it food addiction. But after reading the book, and in light of my own history of feeling utterly in thrall and out of control around certain foods/restaurants, I will call it that. For now. We'll see how the science continues to pan out on this. I remember my own history with asthma and Hashimoto's Thyroiditis and my own self-discoveries, later vindicated. Now, let's see how the obesity studies evolve....

But I leave you with this extended comment from an article on WEB MD:

Kessler stops short of calling Americans' love for sugary, fatty foods a "food addiction." But he believes there are similarities between why some people abuse drugs and why some of us can't resist every last deep-fried chip on a heaped plate of cheese-smothered nachos.

Knowing what's driving our overeating behavior is the first step to changing it, he says.

"For some, it's alcohol," Kessler tells WebMD. "For some, it's drugs. For some, it's gambling. For many of us, it's food."

Kessler, a Harvard-trained pediatrician and medical school professor at the University of California, San Francisco, started researching what would become The End of Overeating after watching an overweight woman talk about obsessive eating habits on The Oprah Winfrey Show. It sounded familiar. Kessler's own weight has zoomed up and down over the years, leaving him with suits of every size.

"For much of my life, sugar, fat, and salt held remarkable sway over my behavior," he writes.

And so the man who tackled tobacco companies while leading the FDA started researching why he couldn't turn down a chocolate chip cookie. He pored over studies on taste preferences, eating habits, and brain activity, conducted studies, and talked to food industry insiders, scientists, and people who struggled with overeating.

His theory: "Hyperpalatable" foods -- those loaded with fat, sugar, and salt -- stimulate the senses and provide a reward that leads many people to eat more to repeat the experience.

"I think the evidence is emerging, and the body of evidence is pretty significant," Kessler says.

He calls it conditioned hypereating, and here's how he says it works. When someone consumes a sugary, fatty food they enjoy, it stimulates endorphins, chemicals in the brain that signal a pleasurable experience. Those chemicals stimulate us to eat more of that type of food -- and also calm us down and make us feel good.

The brain also releases dopamine, which motivates us to pursue more of that food. And cues steer us back to it, too: the sight of the food, a road lined with familiar restaurants, perhaps a vending machine that sells a favorite candy bar. The food becomes a habit. We don't realize why we're eating it and why we can't control our appetite for it.

Once the food becomes a habit, it may not offer the same satisfaction. We look for foods higher in fat and sugar to bring back the thrill.

Kessler points to these factors as the cause of a dramatic spike in the number of overweight Americans in the past three decades.

That's from "Compulsive Overeating And How To Stop It" by Elizabeth Lee, and if you are an overeater (and a compulsive one for sure), then do go over and read the whole thing.

If science proves me wrong in my position, fine. If it proves me right, fine.

I still think that it's about learning what helps and taking responsibility. I will never use my conditioning to overeat--or "food addiction" to hyperpalatable foods--as an excuse. It may be a REASON I was prone to eat to the point of pain and illness. But it's not an excuse. It's information. No one should throw around food addiction as an excuse. That's not adult behavior. You find tools, get help, implement changes as needed--not make excuses.

So, anyway....

Off to vote.

Be well today! Don't overeat! Move on toward your health goals with persistence...

Friday, March 4, 2011

Why that Off Plan Treat May Be a Bad, Bad, Bad Idea....And My Surrender to Salt's Insidious side...as the Intervention Begins ...plus quote from THE END OF OVEREATING

I'm grappling right now with some renewed cravings. Nothing like it was before the challenges. Nothing like it was before my epiphany in the summer of 2010. NOTHING like that.

These are insidious little ones, not big bingey ones.

I really think that the salt cravings that are usually (consistently, inevitably) followed by or preceded by a sweet craving,  is a function of the "extra" snack treats I allowed myself on the long weekend (hubby was off Monday, we went on a day of museum and beachy fun).

It's not that calorically I went off the rails. Not at all.

It was a psychological switch, a trip into a different set of rails. Ones that are not quiescent and conducive to a quiet "food mind".

Let me put it this way: Simple sugars and salt are two parts of the triumvirate that --as studies have shown, not as windbags or brain-dead blatherers would suggest, no, as scientists would posit--sends the overeating-prone, the binge-prone into a bad, bad cycle.

You wanna see proof: visit the excellent Escape from Obesity blog and see what happens when Lyn lets sugars back in her life. Seriously, skim the last years of that blog to see what it does to this sensitive, smart, loving, likable gal who has amazing willpower when SUGARS ARE ABSENT. And her willpower goes shot to hell when sugar/carby treats come back into it. It's an amazing bit of a case study to read that blog. Every obese overeater should. Every binge eater should. Not because you need to follow her formula, but because it becomes readily apparent what calms her appetite and what turns it on to high.

For me, sugar has become less of an issue, because our society has quite tasty sugar-free options that can make me feel like I've had a sweet treat without the simple sugars. But I have not found a suitable substitute for salt. I've tried the fake salt. Eh.

The problem is that salt has an effect on me that is kinda like the effect sugar would have, only subtler. If I eat a lot of simpler carbs, I get really hungry. REALLY HUNGRY. And I bloat.

If I eat a lot of salt, I get a little hungry...it's an annoying buzzer of an insect at first, so it's easy to keep adding more sodium into my diet without having the immediate nutsiness of what happens when I have sugars. It's insidious. Then, it hits: The urge for sugar. The urge for all sorts of sweet things. But it's the SALT that was the pathway drug, if you will, that made me want the sugars.

Oh, and I still bloat and my blood pressure goes up.

The missing component of that triumvirate--fat--is easier to avoid, since on a 1200 calorie diet, you tend to go to the lower fat options, so that's what is in the house--veggies, fruits, eggs and egg whites, lean meats. BUT...salt is omnipresent. It's in low cal canned soups. Its' in snacks like string cheese or hummus. It's in just about anything processed--breads, condiments, marinara sauce, spice mixes (like the Montreal Seasoning on the original challenge packet).

If you put a teaspoon of salt and a teaspoon of sugar and said, 'Which do you want to put in your meal"...I would hit the salt.

And then the salt would lead me to want the sugar.

When I follow my plan--and I'm perfect--my appetite is calm. It's calm cause I'm sticking to lower sodium, no-to-low sugar options, lots of veggies and protein, lower fat. It cuts down (or some days altogether OUT) the simplest sugars, cuts down on sodium, and cuts down on fat. The tripod is crippled. I am not hungry. I don't binge.

For some reason, the demon salt is the hardest part of the tripod for me. I thought it would be fat, I swear. I was wrong. It's easier for me to cut fat, to nearly eliminate the simplest sugars (sucrose, HFCS, simplest starches), to minimize the starches (even complex), but the salt, the salt...my tongue wants it bad.

Anyway, I got out my recently neglected Kindle--I prefer my NookColor, but I have books already loaded to the Kindle and I ain't rebuying them, hah--and am rereading the treatment/rehab section of THE END OF OVEREATING, which has been the single most helpful book to curb my bingeing. I have not binged once since I read it last year.

I figure I gotta remind myself of the steps I took to heal my appetite/binge tendencies. I need to remind myself that it's not just sugar or fat. I gotta beat the hell outta the salt addiction, or my appetite will return and I will want to binge again.

I refuse. I f***ing refuse to go back to that. I am NOT going there.

I am not shooting my progress in the foot for a chemical fix. NaCl is not gonna beat my ass.

I'm a junkie, and this is war.

Quote from the book:

Effective intervention draws us away from the conditioning power of a stimulus before it triggers its usual response. It reminds us that its possible to say no. Intervention begins with the knowledge that we have a moment of choice--but only a moment--to recognize what is about to happen and do something else instead....

The refusal must come early and it must be definitive.

"It's only at the very beginning, when the invitation arises, that you have any control over it."

I have to remind myself of that. If I let it creep, creep, creep, I have given up the moment of choice--the definitive tactic.

No. No. No. No. No. No. No...

Practicing. :)

And this is why sometimes you see me cautioning fellow fatfighters who are about to allow themselves a trigger food (say, chocolate or a cupcake or pizza) to gauge how they feel the week or two after allowing this into their life. If there is no upset, no change in diet success, then maybe it's not a trigger anymore. But if suddenly they're having more treats, trouble sticking to plan, adding a bit more here and there, a scale going the wrong way--then that release of control, that "Yes", may be the cause. It restimulated the brain. It reactivated in full force those habit pathways in the brain.

It put the overeating response center stage. It woke up the beast.

That cup of caramel corn may only be 250 calories and you may budget for it. But did you budget for the cascade of effects it may have on every other meal after that for a week or a month or a year?

It's not benign for some of us. For conditioned hypereaters, that trigger treat may not calorically put us over. It may put us over in a far worse way. It may reactivate appetite, destroy calm, and shatter a good run of weeks or months of self-control. And once it's shattered and we say, "Ah, what's the use," we spiral deeper down.

That order of sweet and spicy wings (sugar, fat, salt) may send you careening off the diet highway.

That cupcake might be your Wellington and the bakery your Waterloo.

It's worth considering.

Just monitor yourself. Some folks actually CAN handle treats.They don't go off the deep end. But if you have been or are morbidly obese and keep getting derailed, carefully study what you are eating that is derailing you. Study the meals on days your appetite stayed calm. Look at the meals/snacks when you suddenly felt more hungry and went off plan. Study carefully the meals the day or day before you went on a binge.

Sugar. Salt. Fat. Together---they will make some of us turn into crazed rats overfeeding, overfeeding, overfeeding....

Allan gets grief from people who say he's dictator-strict about not having cheat foods. Well, he's actually on to something. Conditioned hypereaters are/may be in danger every time they do use a favored cheat food.  How will it affect the brain? Will it send signals for more, so the pleasure response is activated again and again.

There's a reason we feel totally out of control when a binge is on in full force. WE ARE. We have our brain as our own enemy, telling us to keep eating, yes, more of that. And it's not telling us to eat broccoli or an orange. It's telling us to eat more ice cream, Doritos, cookies, pizza, meatball subs, Buffalo wings, blooming onions, cheeseburgers, fries, shakes,cheesey crackers, cookie dough....

Crazed response, conditioned hypereaters.

I'm one of them. But I have tools now.

I have shuriken and swords. It's up to me to learn to use them well or lose the fight.

Okay, off to read more and work on my self-intervention....

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Day 5 Son of DDDY Challenge: Some bloat loss, still not additional loss, and the crazy hard job of establishing new habits re portions, fighting stimuli, strategies that may be nuts-sounding but necessary, and naysaying cues that lead to overeating...plus food/water log, natch.

247.8

Down at last. Yay. But...Still half a pound over where I think I should be considering what I've been eating and drinking.

Not discouraged. Not giving up. Just wondering what the hell is up with my body is all. I was moving nicely along and then not so much. Female bodies are weirder about this stuff then men's it seems (at least from my experience as a female in a family with males and a reader of both male and female blogs).

Weird shit happens. And you just stay the course or make corrections. You do not give up. Ever. Period. No giving up.

I know I'm being accountable. I'm not bullshitting the world or myself with my food log. I had bought shiny new measuring spoons, measuring cups, smaller serving plates and small serving bowls, all in the goal of constraining, containing, and quantifying. I'll even take apart restaurant meals IN THE RESTAURANT (or ask them to take it apart for me, literally, before serving), so I can eyeball measure the ingredients.

I brought a salad home yesterday, all prettily put together, threw out their dressing, took apart the components measured them before reassembling on a plate. Just so I could KNOW. I post at my SparkPeople nutrition tracker to get the calories per weights/measures before I log here on my blog. So I KNOW.

I even measured out where 2 cups of water is on a patterned glass (ie, 2 cups measured comes up to the tip of a particular leaf in the etched pattern). That way, I don't have to measure out two cups each time. I know where to pour up to.

These are all new habits I'm establishing. These are all breaking the cues: Eat at once. It looks good and smells good and you know it tastes good, so just go for it. Just grab the food, toss in in the plate, eat it. Don't measure it, just dig in.

So, I know I'm not cheating on calories (though nothing short of a laboratory is absolutely precise). My body is just not cooperating. Plateau?

I can wait and let it do its thing. I can cut calories. I can move more. Those are pretty much my options.

Right now, I"m going to keep things the same for a couple days and see. If things don't budge, then I will consider the readjusting calories. Patience for now.

I was reading THE END OF OVEREATING in the john (and all of you with weight/overeating issues need, need, need to read this), because I am clearly still in the hard work of establishing new habits. New habits about the size of meals, about the quantity of water, etc. I am looking at my cues and learning to self-talk myself out of the stimulus-response.

And trust me, there's a lot of stimulus in my life/city/world. Some things are easier to do:Tell hubby to take his snacks and crap away from any place I can SEE them FIND them --literally out of here, like to his music room where I rarely go or to his office at work, where I never go.

Others are trickier. The boulevards we drive on the way to places and on the way home are chockablock with cues. I always, always get the urge to go in x and y drive-thrus. Always. It's like Pavlov hit me with a taco or fried chicken stick while I was driving this road.

So, I've been driving down OTHER roads. I mean, there are times when I take some really convoluted back roads to my house to avoid triggers.

Other times, when I'm rushed, I'll have to self-talk: No, you don't want a burrito. No, you don't want a hamburger. No, you don't want pizza. No, you're not getting pastrami at the deli.No, you will not stop for X. You will not stop. It's not an option. It's not worth it. You'll regret it. You will NOT.

I feel a great sense of success when I do not follow the cue to behavior: ie, stopping or driving through. Scarfing up everything in the bag.

Sometimes, the cue is a menu. Seriously. Sometimes, all I have to do is come upon a take-out menu and I want it all. I want to order  6 things, 7 things, I want to eat 10 things. This happened to me at the Thai Place. I wanted something salty, but I wanted to get veggies, not just chow down on cheese and crackers. Thai gives you salt and spice and veggies. I wanted so much suddenly. I felt that weird binge urge. It was STRONG. I thought, "Shit, I need to stop now and forget about the Thai food."

But I held that menu for like 30 minutes fighting the urges. One by One. The one for fried egg rolls. The one for curry chicken. The one for fried dumplings. The one for ..... One by one. No, no, no. Won't have that. What can I have that has fewer cals and more veggies.

I had what I put in my food log. Pretty much the  most taste-but-lowest cal options I could find. (Yes, steamed veggies would have been the rock bottom, but that wouldn't cut it, salt or tastewise).

It could easily have been Waterloo and Napoleon. Instead, it was more Wellingtonian. :)

But menus are definitely bad, bad cue-instigators. Menus from places I've eaten and know what's tasty.

One way to get around that is not to have menus: Make your own. Get a Word Document going, add each restaurant you frequent, add only the names/prices of the foods you SHOULD order (and the ones maybe a spouse orders). And ditch the takeout menus. Use only the "safe" non-cue menus. I need to do this.

Okay, back to the challenge:

I was super great on water yesterday. I was pretty good on food. I was crap on sodium, and I can't work up too much of a righteous indignation about that.  If I can't have the super indulgences of the past, I decided I'm still having the salty thrill. For now, at least. I may have to reconsider that, too.

Yesterday's challenge stats have me under calorie limit and way over fluid optimum:


Total Calories:  1594 (c39/f37/p24)
Total Fluids:  248 oz

Woke up thirsty again. Water will be huge on the agenda. Again. :)

Have a great and healthful weekend, people!

BREAKFAST:
2 slices Ezekiel Bread
1/4 cup sharp cheddar shreds
2 eggs fried in tsp Smart Balance
1 cup papaya chunks
1 cup raspberries
2 cups coffee (16 oz fluid)
10 glasses water (6 before eating, 2 during, 2 after) : 80 oz

bkfst calories: 576
bkfst fluids: 96 oz

(feel very full)

LUNCH:
homemade lower-cal, lower-fat, lower-sugar Pastrami Reuben
(3oz turkey pastrami, 1 oz lower-fat Swiss Cheese, sauerkraut, and dressing made
from 1 tbsp lite mayo, 1 tbsp low-carb ketchup, 2 tsp sugar-free sweet relish)
1 cup mixed strawberries and pineapple, 2 cups watermelon chunks
2 cups decaf with sucralose
6 glasses water
assorted supplements

lunch calories: 596
lunch fluids: 64 oz

calories so far: 1172
fluids so far: 160 oz

SNACK:
2 glasses water (16 oz)
1 bag Kay's Natural honey almond protein cereal

calories so far: 1272
fluids so far:  176 oz

DINNER:
WS Vanilla protein shake (made with 6 oz water and 1/3 cup milk) (128 cals)
1/3 cup skim milk
(total fluids for above about 8.7 oz)
2 glasses water (16 oz)


Total Calories:  1400 (c48/f27/p25)
Total fluids: 200.7 oz