Day 11 of 84 in the StSC: Trying not to get bummed, and what inspires me to keep going...

Scale is almost at a standstill, as I myself have been pretty much at a standstill...or is that a sit-still or lie-still? The knee is better, but still feels unstable...like sometimes I'm walking and it feels...loose, like it'll give a bit. Still aches a bit. But much improved.

Lying around/sitting around has not improved either my appetite or the scale progress. So frustrating: 193.2  Only a half pound in all these days.My appetite increase is likely due to a sort of mental association reversion thing: "Oh, are we back to the sitting/lying around like an anemic slug days again? Whoopee. Let's have some fried cheese! Or a bacon-cheeseburger deluxe, followed by chocolate cake!"

Yeah, something about just being inactive has put me in some weird "I wanna eat to comfort myself" zone. And it affects my mood.

Sucks. But I'm fighting it. I've had closer to 1400 calories (1385 yesterday) and still had to fight off the eat more urges. I suppose this is something to get used to and learn to handle, since it will happen from time to time. I will have injuries/disease. I will have inactive days/weeks, perhaps (Lord, forbid) months. At 51, the fall made me reassess my fragility (I do worry about these wonky knees of mine and the arthritis). I think it's the whole, "I"m old, getting older, am scared" thing that affected my mood. Well, and not having my walking endorphins. :-/

But I ain't giving up. I will fight past the inactivity setback and mood dip and will emerge with my fighting spirit on fire.

 Not giving up. Part of this challenge is to keep going, and that's for life. Keep going for health for life....

Thank God for support. Hubby has been affectionate and attentive and it keeps me from getting too bummed out. I was cheered last night viewing some of his pro pics. (I got him a deal for professional photos, since he does classes/conferences and has his second edition of his book coming out, for resumes, etc, I wanted GOOD pics in assorted poses, for various users. For his gamer mode, author mode, engineer mode, Frisbee-er mode, business mode, manly mode, and just some fun ones for me to drool over.)

Here's one where I like his expression a lot, cause his intelligence and sweetness both shine in it:

mmmmmmmmmmmm,.so hot....

And this is his new suit (bought last week, cause he's dropped oodles of pounds and old suits don't fit). I insisted on sexy, basic, quality BLACK. Nothing professionally sexier on a man than a BLACK basic suit (lower rez, cause I couldn't get them to FLIP on blogger. Anyone know how to flip photos on blogger?):

 And here is a smiley gamer hubby:

Anyway, fluids good, prayer good. Exercise and encouragement, not so much. Sorry.

Today, I'm going to Pilates and I suppose we'll work around the knee. Maybe upper body stuff.

Later, peops! Fight the good fatfight!

UPDATE: Got back from Pilates. Am eating my satay chicken, salad, fruit and French press Sumatra java. Yum. Knee is aching and throbbing. We had to stick to upper body and reposition me so the knee wasn't strained. It was tough. I had some dizzy spells. Trainer says stay off, no walking, and if in a week it's still unstable and hurting, must see ortho. Um, yeah, figured that one out.

On to the goals, no matter what....!

Day 13 of Son of DDDY Challenge: Down 1/2 pound, Not hungry at all so far, drinking my water, still breathing poorly and itchy and congested, and wish I'd cancelled training tomorrow...

Tanita-san says: 244.2  (already sent Allan the weigh-in for SofDDDY)

I am wanting to kiss Tanita-san today. Another tick down and it will be officially 55 lbs down.

Today, I'm moving towards cutting the fat as per my DNA test results (see previous post). I'm too breathing-impaired to move (activity makes me gasp really bad, asthma sucks). I'm not keen on adding too much carbs in right off, but I will begin to add more fruit and starches in the fiberlicious forms (whole grain breads, higher fiber resistant pasta, beans) and cut back on the fats. Hard, cause I'm a cheese freak.

Wish I felt better. I have a scheduled Pilates training session on Monday, as usual, and if I had cancelled 24 hours or earlier, I'd keep my moolah. Cancel later (like I did Thursday), and you lose your training fee. (Nearly 70 bucks.) Damn. I'll have to go or lose another wad of cash. I gotta learn to just cancel a couple weeks' worth when I'm sick, then reschedule when I can see I'm on the mend. Damn, I hate wasting the moolah like that.

The sweetest hubby in the Cosmos!

Nothing much else to say. I'm sick. Got my test results. My hips are tired of sitting. I want to breathe like a normal person. I want a metabolism like a normal person. I'm feeling a tad sorry for myself, but just a tad. Mostly, I'm glad I have a magnificent, wonderful, astonishingly great husband who got me a bit of groceries so I could just rest and recover, and who kisses me and tells me I'm doing great and how beautiful I am. This you can't put a price on, this sort of blessing.

Plus he's so hot he nearly makes me faint.

So, gotta focus on the positive. Not hungry, scale going down, hopeful that rejiggering diet may speed loss, and hubby rocks like Gibraltar.

Have a Sunday with some dose of bliss and beauty, okay?

Food log time:

BREAKFAST: (usual boring stuff, nothing to see here)
Egg whites with onions and mushrooms and 2 slices 2% singles
WS hotcakes with sugar free syrup and 2 oz natural applesauce
1 organic kiwi
1 tbsp Smart Balance to grease both pans used (1/2 of yesterday's usage)
2 cups regular coffee, 10 glasses of water, then 4 oz hot tea

calories: 464
fluids: 100 oz

LUNCH:
2 cups Turkish lentil beef soup
3/4 cup fresh papaya
2 cups decaf
4 glasses water

calories:  547
fluids:  48 oz


DINNER:
didn't really have dinner. More like 2 snacks

Snack 1:
1 apple
1.3 oz multigrain toast with 1 slice Deli Select 2% cheddar
1 cup decaf
2 glasses water

calories: 246
fluids: 24 oz

Snack 2:
1 WS vanilla protein shake
1 bag Kay's Sweet BBQ Mix protein snack
1 serving ChocoRite sugar free chocolate almonds
2 glasses water

calories: 395
fluids: 16 oz

Total Calories:  1652  (39c-28p-33f)
Total Fluids: 188 oz